Evie is two! 17.8.20

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She’s two the little minx and it happened in the blink of an eye.

I am a week late on her blog post, things are so busy right now – I have regressed back to the time I had to work late at night and wake up extra early just to try and stay on top of things, i’m not complaining – I am always grateful as you know – but life is indeed full and busy again after the lovely slowness of lockdown.
So wee Evie Elizabeth – oh how my hearts swells and the corners of my mouth rise just thinking of you.  I never knew how much I would love having a daughter – I was certain you were to be my third little boy and I was thrilled with that – then you my sweet girl appeared and just completed our family.
Your brothers adore you completely and your Dad, oh my, you are his princess and seriously God help whoever you choose to date when you grow up for they will have three big men interrogating them before you are allowed out the door lol.
You called your daddy Richard the other day – I nearly fell over laughing….’ Where’s Richard Mummy?’ Hilarious.
Here are some things you love right now…..
*Water. Whether it be running as fast as you into the sea, playing at the sink, sitting in the bath splashing or down at the little river where we spent the first few weeks of lockdown almost every day – you are a total wee water baby.
*Your blanky. A little fleece blanket given by my lovely friend Lisa when you were born, it doesn’t go everywhere with you, but you love it for your naps and bedtime and I do struggle to get it washed and dried in between sometimes.
*Netflix ( oh dear )  you are a little addict and know how to put it on and get into your own profile to watch your shows…..Chip and Potato, Hey Duggee, Charlies Colorform City to name a few…..you know exactly what you want and when you want to change it……its really impressive and also a bit shocking that you know so much already.
*Alexa.  Which you pronounce ‘ZYGO’. Im not sure why but this is what you shout at poor auld Alexa who must then play you Baby Shark, Dance Monkey and Blinding Lights on repeat as you shake your little hips around the kitchen and drag your brothers up to dance with you.
*The beach….we have spent every possible moment on the beach in Castlerock, more than ever this year, and you and I are often down on the beach very early in the morning walking Bono before the boys are even awake. I am so happy you seem to love the sand and water as much as I do – it will be our special place.
*Bono.  Our new pup. You absolutely love him, and he loves you.  Its really beautiful to watch you play together – I am excited to see that bond grow as you grow up.
*Cows. Flip me Evie, you really love cows…..I think you are either going to be farmer or marry one lol.
*Tom and Lumi – Nanny’s cats.  We speak of them most nights before bed.  Personally I am not a cat fan, but if you love them……I will too.
*Lucy and Abby ( Sussie and Abeeeee) your cousins. They have you spoilt rotten, especially Lucy.  I am hopeful she will be to you what her mum was for me, a best friend, a voice of reason, someone to confide in when you don’t want to tell me. ( though I pray I will be that person for you too).
*A big Sunday roast.  Providing you can watch your ‘beebies’ while you are having it….an awful bad habit I have allowed you to slip in to – I blame lockdown and home school for this…..It was hard going and I did give you the iPad too freely when I tried to occupy you while I was home schooling – this is something I plan to work hard on to change when the boys get back to school and we get our lives into something of a routine again.
*Back scratches….especially if there are times I have to lie beside you to get you to sleep, you will say ‘ scatch my back mummy’.  All my children love this.  It comes from me – I love it too.
Things you dont like:-
*Wearing a bobble, clip, hairband or even having your hair pushed out of your eyes.  It would delight me so much to put it in pigtails for you – you let me once – its was adorable – then you pulled them out and threw the bobbles on the floor.  You like your hair natural and a little scruffy – a bit like myself I suppose.  And you know what – I love it on you too.
*When Rogan steals your toys.  He only does it so you will shout ‘Gimmie Rogi’ at him. So hilarious.
Thats about it really for your dislikes so far….you are a pretty happy, chilled out little lady most of the time. You barely even cry when you fall or bump. You’re going to be a very strong woman and make us very proud!
So as I do with all of you on your birthdays, I attempted a birthday shoot in the studio.  You were having absolutely none of it Evie. We tried all kinds of bribery – Brody and Rogan were so good trying to help me to make you happy, but no, you wanted outside to Bono, so I took this one miserable but still extremely cute pic of you roaring……and then I followed you round the garden for the rest.
This is you, age two.  Affectionate, beautiful, clever, stubborn, bossy, a little shy with new people, hilarious, kind and so so so very loved by us all.
Have the best year little darling. x
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Lockdown and parenthood 10.6.20

Im going round in circles today, mostly picking up crap from the boys bedrooms. I thought I would pause for 5 minutes and write down this jumble of thoughts bouncing around in my brain – just in case there might be someone else out there who might be feeling the same way…….it’s good to share.

I think this is week 12….maybe its 13?  Geez i have actually lost count, but regardless, its been a bloody long time.  And in that time, at home with my three young children I have learned an awful lot about myself.

I honestly used to envy stay at home mums, jealous of their beautiful, sweet days spent playing with their little ones, perhaps organising a closet, a little trip to the shops, a coffee, casual reading, cooking, baking, a walk through the park….

‘ahhhh’ said I to myself many, many times, ‘wouldn’t that be lovely, not having to work’ but its a fantasy really isn’t it?

Over the course of this past few weeks I have punished myself many an evening thinking:-

‘I haven’t done any work today’  ‘Im neglecting my business’ ‘I should be posting new content’ I should be replying to emails, organising the studio, promoting myself like all the other photographers are doing’  so many punishing thoughts because I let myself feel like I hadn’t had a productive day when in fact…….just take today so far……

I have got up after a very sleep deprived night, let the dog out, lifted his poo, fed and played with him, got three kids up, dressed, fed, loaded the dishwasher, unloaded the dishwasher, picked up clothes and toys that are lying everywhere, done a load of washing, hung washing out on line, brought washing in again because the smell of slurry would knock you out, rewashed those clothes, changed a bed, brushed a skid mark of the toilet bowl,

HOMESCHOOLED ( enough said, you all know)

Put Evie for a sleep, made lunch, currently writing blog and viewing dishes from lunch still to be done……it goes on and on doesn’t it? yet we think we do nothing because we do SO many little things which go unnoticed. The constant cooking, cleaning and the never ending laundry. Sometimes I literally have just finished clearing up when its time to start cooking all over again.

Over this past 12 or whatever it is weeks I think I’ve felt every emotion there is to feel.

At the beginning I had this list in my head of all I would get done from organising the hot press and everyones wardrobes, to revamping the studio and blogging every wedding I shot last year and finally, finally clearing out the messy drawer in the kitchen, but none of that happened.  The day just goes in so very quickly, being a mum ( or the stay at home parent) and running a home is the busiest job in the world. Truly.

So I am no longer going to allow myself to feel guilty about what I haven’t done, and instead remind myself of all the things I did do, irrelevant as they may seem to others, keeping your kids happy and balanced during this strange time hasn’t been easy so well done to you all if you have been in the same boat as myself. We’re doing good!

There were days I was full of ideas and energy and trekking them through rivers and forests and bug hunts and catching frogspawn, bike rides, painting, creating, reading, dancing and if you follow my insta stories you may have seen a lot of that, but there were other days when I felt so drained I happily told them they could play the playstation for 3 hours if they gave me peace. I didn’t story those days.

There were days I realised Richard was a much better parent than I was and my heart sank as they hung on his every word and completely ignored me when I asked them to do something. But I have since discovered our parenting styles compliment and balance each other well, and i’ve just had to learn not to be such a soft touch all the time to gain a little respect from my boys.

It’s been a rollercoaster. I am happy to get off now. Get back to work and all the extra  juggling that may entail. I am lucky enough to be shooting my first wedding again very soon and I cannot wait!!!!

I think this picture of our busted up paddling pool says its all really – lockdown you were good crack for a while…..but i’m kinda done with you now.

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I hear the sweet sounds of Evie chatting through the monitor now.

Have a wonderful day

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